When I was still a toddler, a nurse gave me a polio vaccine injection while I was having a high fever. Since then, my left leg has grown abnormally.
Fortunately, my family is always looking after me with loving kindness, especially my father who is always taking care of me. I grew into a lady brimming with confidence. My father really takes good care of me, many times when people mock me he always stands up for me.
I was always pampered and protected by my family; as a result I lived only to have fun. I spend my time partying, hanging out with my friends in café or bars until late at night. Smoking and drinking alcohol becomes my daily routine.
My family and friends, and the people around me started to notice that I had become temperamental, emotional, and egoist.
It was until one day, an event occurred to me. An event that made me realize, I was responsible for my own happiness. All along, while I’ve worked hard in school and in business, I kept blaming others for my own unhappiness.
One of my friends told me about Bali Usada Health Meditation. Obviously I have no interest at all. Not even one tiny bit.
However my friend was really persistent until I finally gave up and joined Usada Regular Course for two months (one session every week). After two months passed, I feel different. Although it was not as significant (around 10% to 20%), my urge to smoke and to drink alcohol is gone. My family and friends told me that I have changed; I became patient and calm, and I rarely got angry and upset.
My parents were really glad to see me changed and enjoyed my life in a different way than before.
Thus I decided to join Tapa Brata I in Bali. During Tapa Brata for seven days and six nights, I contemplated on the beauty and the happiness in being sincere.
I never could really forgive others that trespass against me. However, after joining Bali Usada, I understand that if they did not have done what they did to me, I would never have changed myself. I would have never joined Bali Usada, and I would still be drinking and smoking.
Nowadays, I feel my life is really a blessing for me. I committed to myself to share my experiences to others that might have been in the same position as I was; filled with regret and unhappiness. I wanted to keep my spirit and optimism in my start up business, to inspire others that despite my deformed leg, I can do many positive things for others.
